Leave of Absence.
ByOK, OK, I know it’s been weeks since we last saw each other, but it’s been for the best I’d like to think. I wrapped up my Seattle trip a few days early after basically being kicked out of my friends house for letting her into my real world. A world of confusion, depression, financial hardship, low self esteem, and the energy to do little more than nothing. The last time I saw her, I basically didn’t express my real feeling for the very reason, I didn’t want it to affect our relationship. So if you have a hard time dealing with whats really going on with people, don’t ask “how are you” and expect a truthful answer, or if you get one, PLEASE don’t alienate the person as it will only send them further into depression for being truthful. If you can’t handle the truth, just listen, give them a hug, tell them you love them and leave it at that. I really feel like I lost a friend of over 10 years.
On a higher note, I did get to surf LaPush and had a mini Mt Baker reunion. At the coast I saw Tofe, Dave and Cindy, Maria Debari, and in West Seattle I had breakfast with Maxx Von Marbod, Marcel Dolak, Megan Bailey at Easy Street cafe, Jamie Lynn even pulled up on his hog. I stopped at the Mervin factory where I saw Pete Saari, Stephen Cobb (board engineer), A few others, and Tim Zimmerman was in town from Portland on his way to Whistler. So for such a short trip, it was packed with familiar faces. I really love the Northwest. I’ll get back there someday if it kills me. I missed the Spacecraft show/party, but did see that Ryan Davis is coming up in the art world with graphics on this and next years Mervin boards. Good stuff.
Medically and physically I have been feeling like total crap lately. I am kicking the pain killers because I think they are actually the cause of the intestinal pain I am having, or the tumor is growing back faster than ever. I have no idea. The cramping has gone away since my efforts to get off the pills so that’s good. It’s been replaced with the symptoms of withdrawal so that’s not so good. I basically have no idea what’s going on with my body, and I just want to feel good. I haven’t had the energy to do anything lately. I’m down to 1/2 hydrocodone every 1-2 days. I was taking 4-5 daily.
In lighter news, I have been graced with the help of Steph Nitsch in writing the proposal and press release for the Gone Til November movie premier series/B4BC benefit. Due to my health and mental condition, I wasn’t sure I wanted to take it on this year, but after reading her words, I am very inspired to make it happen. There are some issues with the current chosen location, so I’m trying to get up to Tahoe to scout a few others, and maybe work some shifts at Sam’s, cause I am broke.
IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO GET INVOLVED WITH THE BENEFIT, PLEASE EMAIL ME AT SCOTT@HIVEPROJECTS.NET.
I’ll post a gallery for this as soon as I find the usb cord for my camera. Gotta clean my room, and unpack. I haven’t done that yet.